I have asked others Lord so I ask that you forgive me for that… I need to know your mind on this matter. I still love him. I still desire to be with him, but if it isn’t your will for that to be, then don’t let it be. If it is your will I pray that you make is so clear to me that I can’t mistake it. I want to be in your perfect will only. I want to be with the person that you designed for me. I can get past feelings and bow my emotions and intellect to your will. I have no choice. I want what you want for me. I want a God man… one that will take the deepest care of his family and love me like Christ loved the church. What does a lady in waiting do when there is a prospect? What if he isn’t even a prospect and I am just living in the clouds…hoping and praying and wishing… I need a Naomi in my life Lord…. Someone who can guide me into what I need to do… Please send one my way…
Then said she, Sit still, my daughter, until thou know how the matter will fall: for the man will not be in rest, until he have finished the thing this day.
God is telling me to be still and know that he is God. He wants me to wait